I... can function. I'm doing modeling still, but mostly I just help my cousins at the Hybrid Research Lab, even if it's just... modeling and holding signs and. Simple things. ... At least the two of them don't treat me as lesser or a money wallet. So I like them as family.
... And yeah. I've been... desperate for years to get my sister back. I'm not even sure why now, that the... depersonalization is giving me... uh, a twisted sense of ability to sort look at that 'objectively'? I realize now what I did was... dumb. Really really stupid and desperate and I'm not sure why I was so eager to hurt myself...
No nevermind I sometimes poke or cut myself to see if bleeding means anything...
Ashley's said she's willing to turn what's left of my sister into a doll if it'd make me happy. Like sort of a robot or person sized toy. I'm. Still thinking about it.
I kind of want to get back at the demon that used me, if Ashley blowing it up with a Ring of Destruction didn't kill it...
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Date: 2021-03-28 01:52 am (UTC)I... can function. I'm doing modeling still, but mostly I just help my cousins at the Hybrid Research Lab, even if it's just... modeling and holding signs and. Simple things. ... At least the two of them don't treat me as lesser or a money wallet. So I like them as family.
... And yeah. I've been... desperate for years to get my sister back. I'm not even sure why now, that the... depersonalization is giving me... uh, a twisted sense of ability to sort look at that 'objectively'? I realize now what I did was... dumb. Really really stupid and desperate and I'm not sure why I was so eager to hurt myself...
No nevermind I sometimes poke or cut myself to see if bleeding means anything...
Ashley's said she's willing to turn what's left of my sister into a doll if it'd make me happy. Like sort of a robot or person sized toy. I'm. Still thinking about it.
I kind of want to get back at the demon that used me, if Ashley blowing it up with a Ring of Destruction didn't kill it...