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[Journal Post]
Mar. 27th, 2021 05:06 pm
... Is it normal for parents to be annoying about asking about money. Especially if your SOs are absolutely loaded with... I think I heard the words trust funds and off-shore bank accounts and stock holdings...?
Because my mother won't stop prying about knowing how she'll be able to use the money Aisling and Katherine have, since you know, marriage.
Because it's.
Exhausting. To have every phone call she and I have swing around to the top.
Ugggh. It's like she's a spoiled brat in a candy store.
And I'd really REALLY rather not deal with her whining about it when I can barely muster the energy to be a person each day anymore.
[Dual Post]
Mar. 6th, 2021 07:18 pm
Journal Post
... Well, Ashley and Katherine finally let me use social media again, they. Think. I've. gotten myself together again to handle it. ... Not sure if I should bother, I still don't feel like... whoever I'm supposed to be. I keep looking at my hands... and they don't feel like they belong to me?
I'm not even sure if I belong to me? Like. I keep looking in the mirror. Listening to what Katherine and Ashley have to say. What my mother has to say...
And I don't feel like that person is real? Exists? Is me?
But... I'm... trying...
But the person in the mirror... just seems... not real.
I guess I'll try... and keep going... since I don't want to make them feel bad... and they deserve... I dunno, better than whoever that person was?
Event Post
::This is a girl wearing a placard with a shark hoodie and who might have a shark tail, hanging around the Hybrid Research Lab or Castle & Castle, with the kind of dumb offers of how maybe "X Is For You". You can tell she's not really comfortable in her skin. She's got a nice animal print blouse that doesn't seem like a total sleaze gravity well like certain women.
Maybe talk to her.
Or if you're a jerk, throw a tomato at her.::
[Private Diary Entry]
Oct. 25th, 2020 09:41 pmFirst of all, if you're reading this, screw you, why are you reading a girl's private thoughts? Don't you believe in women's hopes or dreams should be private?
... Anyways. I suppose this is my confession, to myself at least, of what I think is my last chance to get my sister back, and everything I've done, so there's at least a record forAshleyAisling and Katherine if they need to cry. Or... do they even cry? I wish I know better. Like I felt I knew.
I've been having a recurring dream. Of an ocean? I think it's an ocean. An ocean-like place. With a boardwalk. Above? In? Around? The ocean. But it didn't seem like an ocean that belonged to Earth. It was more. The idea of an ancient lost ocean forgotten to the halls and chambers of time. The concept of an ocean. A primordial ocean.
And as I walked, I could hear a voice. A voice telling me I could gain back what I had lost. For months, when the dream kept coming, I had no idea what I had lost, due to whatever Ashley's mom and that weird teacher did. I. know they did something. I still don't know what it was.
But when they slipped back in what was missing, I knew what the dream was talking about, and I felt the anger of the fact I hard forgotten, how could I forget. Forget her face. Forget the one thing that keeps me going. That makes me feel like I matter. I was a hollow puppet, and now I'm not.
I have to do this. I have to do this so I feel like my life since she died wasn't a monumental waste.
It was me that abducted the vampire girl to build a path into the Imaginary Sea.
It was me that tied the energy of the lost dorm to the lost ruins, to open the door to the Imaginary Sea, where She sleeps.
It was me that asked Xiuying to watch the forest, the cables, and the gate for me.
It was me who risked everything to bring back my sister, even if it costs me everything. I will open the door to the Imaginary Sea and get my wish granted from the Sleeper in its depths.
I'm not going to be just some empty hollow trophy wife.
- Mitsuhara, Suburu
... Anyways. I suppose this is my confession, to myself at least, of what I think is my last chance to get my sister back, and everything I've done, so there's at least a record for
I've been having a recurring dream. Of an ocean? I think it's an ocean. An ocean-like place. With a boardwalk. Above? In? Around? The ocean. But it didn't seem like an ocean that belonged to Earth. It was more. The idea of an ancient lost ocean forgotten to the halls and chambers of time. The concept of an ocean. A primordial ocean.
And as I walked, I could hear a voice. A voice telling me I could gain back what I had lost. For months, when the dream kept coming, I had no idea what I had lost, due to whatever Ashley's mom and that weird teacher did. I. know they did something. I still don't know what it was.
But when they slipped back in what was missing, I knew what the dream was talking about, and I felt the anger of the fact I hard forgotten, how could I forget. Forget her face. Forget the one thing that keeps me going. That makes me feel like I matter. I was a hollow puppet, and now I'm not.
I have to do this. I have to do this so I feel like my life since she died wasn't a monumental waste.
It was me that abducted the vampire girl to build a path into the Imaginary Sea.
It was me that tied the energy of the lost dorm to the lost ruins, to open the door to the Imaginary Sea, where She sleeps.
It was me that asked Xiuying to watch the forest, the cables, and the gate for me.
It was me who risked everything to bring back my sister, even if it costs me everything. I will open the door to the Imaginary Sea and get my wish granted from the Sleeper in its depths.
I'm not going to be just some empty hollow trophy wife.
- Mitsuhara, Suburu
[Journal Post]
Sep. 20th, 2020 07:21 am
I feel like I'm out of a daze. A deep mist.
And just in time for my graduation finals and my final project being due...
As a breather between cramming...
What does my name feel like it should be to those reading?
And do I seem like a cat?
[Private to Xiuying]
I'd like to ask something of you.
[Event Post]
May. 8th, 2020 03:06 pm
::Everyone's favorite teenage witch
You can find her at Duel Academy, most likely in the library skulking around the more forbidden or occult books, especially ones that are chained or bolted down.
Or out in the city, you can find here near her cousin's Hybrid Research Facility, or loitering near Castle & Castle, or the Duel College doing much as the same as the above.
If you are familiar with her, it might be dawning on you she looks off. Like either she got work done, or this is a stunt double maybe if your brain itches the right way.
The even more adept might take note of there seems to be a strange silver haired girl idly following her, in an Osiris Red uniform in any of these locations. Who in the more sunlit areas, seems to be in a daze.::
(no subject)
Mar. 26th, 2020 05:55 pmSo.
I have a work name I'm for professional reasons after classes.
Easy enough to remember but not connected to mine.
And for some reason, my girlfriends and my mother have all started using my work name, as if it were a long standing nickname.
(They've never heard the work name before)
Should I be concerned?
I have a work name I'm for professional reasons after classes.
Easy enough to remember but not connected to mine.
And for some reason, my girlfriends and my mother have all started using my work name, as if it were a long standing nickname.
(They've never heard the work name before)
Should I be concerned?
(no subject)
Feb. 14th, 2020 06:21 pm
My brain's probably rotted from being around Katherine and Ashley, but what do boys like to eat?
(no subject)
Jan. 12th, 2020 07:58 pm
I'm not sure what to think when one minute my mother says I'm too young to get married potentially, and then I mention who.
And Mom looks up the net worth of the girl I'm considering, she pretty much goes "Yes, please, marry into money. Soon.".
I don't remember her being this shallow.
[Closed Event Posts]
Dec. 30th, 2019 04:56 pm::Mostly doing some small stuff for a certain witch-turned cat-turned witch.::
[Closed Event Post]
Aug. 28th, 2019 01:17 amWhat do you mean you're not going with us?
::Suburu said this with a venomous hiss to Ashley, in the club room, as Kitty struggles to get on her witching outfit in the background, comically.::
::Suburu said this with a venomous hiss to Ashley, in the club room, as Kitty struggles to get on her witching outfit in the background, comically.::
(no subject)
Jan. 27th, 2019 06:37 pmI'm unsure as to who might be interested in this besides Aisling and Katherine, but.
I'll be working 2 to 3 times a week as an intern at one of Leo Corp's facilities, if anyone needs me.
I'll be working 2 to 3 times a week as an intern at one of Leo Corp's facilities, if anyone needs me.
