[Private Diary Entry]
Oct. 25th, 2020 09:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
weekendwitchFirst of all, if you're reading this, screw you, why are you reading a girl's private thoughts? Don't you believe in women's hopes or dreams should be private?
... Anyways. I suppose this is my confession, to myself at least, of what I think is my last chance to get my sister back, and everything I've done, so there's at least a record forAshleyAisling and Katherine if they need to cry. Or... do they even cry? I wish I know better. Like I felt I knew.
I've been having a recurring dream. Of an ocean? I think it's an ocean. An ocean-like place. With a boardwalk. Above? In? Around? The ocean. But it didn't seem like an ocean that belonged to Earth. It was more. The idea of an ancient lost ocean forgotten to the halls and chambers of time. The concept of an ocean. A primordial ocean.
And as I walked, I could hear a voice. A voice telling me I could gain back what I had lost. For months, when the dream kept coming, I had no idea what I had lost, due to whatever Ashley's mom and that weird teacher did. I. know they did something. I still don't know what it was.
But when they slipped back in what was missing, I knew what the dream was talking about, and I felt the anger of the fact I hard forgotten, how could I forget. Forget her face. Forget the one thing that keeps me going. That makes me feel like I matter. I was a hollow puppet, and now I'm not.
I have to do this. I have to do this so I feel like my life since she died wasn't a monumental waste.
It was me that abducted the vampire girl to build a path into the Imaginary Sea.
It was me that tied the energy of the lost dorm to the lost ruins, to open the door to the Imaginary Sea, where She sleeps.
It was me that asked Xiuying to watch the forest, the cables, and the gate for me.
It was me who risked everything to bring back my sister, even if it costs me everything. I will open the door to the Imaginary Sea and get my wish granted from the Sleeper in its depths.
I'm not going to be just some empty hollow trophy wife.
- Mitsuhara, Suburu
... Anyways. I suppose this is my confession, to myself at least, of what I think is my last chance to get my sister back, and everything I've done, so there's at least a record for
I've been having a recurring dream. Of an ocean? I think it's an ocean. An ocean-like place. With a boardwalk. Above? In? Around? The ocean. But it didn't seem like an ocean that belonged to Earth. It was more. The idea of an ancient lost ocean forgotten to the halls and chambers of time. The concept of an ocean. A primordial ocean.
And as I walked, I could hear a voice. A voice telling me I could gain back what I had lost. For months, when the dream kept coming, I had no idea what I had lost, due to whatever Ashley's mom and that weird teacher did. I. know they did something. I still don't know what it was.
But when they slipped back in what was missing, I knew what the dream was talking about, and I felt the anger of the fact I hard forgotten, how could I forget. Forget her face. Forget the one thing that keeps me going. That makes me feel like I matter. I was a hollow puppet, and now I'm not.
I have to do this. I have to do this so I feel like my life since she died wasn't a monumental waste.
It was me that abducted the vampire girl to build a path into the Imaginary Sea.
It was me that tied the energy of the lost dorm to the lost ruins, to open the door to the Imaginary Sea, where She sleeps.
It was me that asked Xiuying to watch the forest, the cables, and the gate for me.
It was me who risked everything to bring back my sister, even if it costs me everything. I will open the door to the Imaginary Sea and get my wish granted from the Sleeper in its depths.
I'm not going to be just some empty hollow trophy wife.
- Mitsuhara, Suburu
